Second Half.

Assalamualaikum,

I was stressed playing DotA.

Nevermind.

Alhamdulillah, I'm still breathing until now.

Second half.. what do you think?

Football? Basketball? Baseball?

Not related to sports after all.

It is about semester, our first semester for this year.

It is already second half, and it's already 20 March!!

Btw, let me take the chance to wish my coursemates (sorry, I like to use course instead of class), Annette Shizu a.k.a Ajumma and Alex happy bestday. Sorry folks, no present for you.

I read my friend status, our BIG will be held on 30th March, I'm in the same group with people, not animals. Hehehe.

That's one event. Another event? Ohhh, our SBE report. Seriously I haven't done anything about this, as well as linguistics assignment.

What did I do on holidays? Holidays! What else? Hehe.

Still, I will set my gear up to five to finish this. I'm grateful to Allah because before SBE, we managed to kill about 6 courseworks. Now, only left with two (I think so). Excluding the quiz, yup, only two - I don't know if BIG have coursework too.

Nearly the end of March. April is waiting. What's on April? UAK. Then the real examination. Huuuu.

For semester five, good luck with your practicum, your first practicum. :)

Today's lecturer, the only thing attracted me was Child Development, regarding stress.

Most people will face this kind of situation. Yup, MOST PEOPLE.

Why I used MOST there? For those who are obey to Allah, who believe his or her life and soul are in Allah's hand, they never face it. Believe me.

Stress can be handled, if we know how but not everyone can do it, including me.

If we stress, remember Allah. Insya Allah, we'll be fine. :)

If you spend five minutes to pray, you won't lose anything, you will feel alright. Seriously. So never forget and always take care of 'solat'.

I'll update more A.S.A.P.

Night folks.

Pae - It's still not too late.....

Memories make me stronger.

I was hanging out today with my best friends, Zul and Adlizan. We were playing badminton along with Qawiem. All about today, Adlizan kept mentioning about the memories of him during past years. With his friends, ex-classmates, ex-girlfriend. hehehe. I just listened to him. I like to be silent whenever people are talking to me and I will only talk if the chance is given. (means after they finished what they want to say)

I tried to remember the memories that I had before. None of them were good, I mean, not really sweet memories. Well, just one thing. My groups (1992) were the best batch in my former High School SM SFX. Why?PMR and SPM..we're the one who made them proud as our school was listed in top 10 best school in Sabah. That's a wonderful one. Erm.. what else ya?

Well, actually, during my high school, many events, incidents and a lot more happened. I just want to share. :)

In 2005, my first year in secondary school. Well, I have a few friends only. I was like a ghost in my class. Haha. Being alone and EASILY distracted and emotional. (hormone problems maybe I think) Some of my classmates like to tease me and call me something that hurt me. Want to know what? Heeee. NO WAY! 

I had a crush on two girls. (wow) First one was D****n and the second one was one of my classmates. But I was also IN A RELATIONSHIP with a girl who had crush on me. But after 3 days, we broke up. Why? Honestly, I have no feeling on her. So I didn't want to lie to her. (maybe I dumped her because the crush on my classmate)

About my crush, when I told her that I love her, I was rejected. (HAHAHA) I'm not suit to her at all. (that was what her friend said) And HELL YEAH. I WAS HURT. (who doesn't?I was teen at that moment) and mostly I segregated myself and my friend at that time was Valerian. haha. I took about more than 8 months to recover. (kununla)

In 2006, I had nothing beautiful memories in this year. Except for..erm..I don't know.But my friends did. Ijan and Ijul. kehkehkeh. Both of them had crush on two girls - one from my class and other was my ex-crush- keh keh keh. Then, both of them rejected. However, Ijan did have the chance compared to me though they didn't make it.

In 2007, oh hell yeah! My golden year. Hahaha. This year was my PMR year. I had a HUGE CRUSH on a girl named (can't be mentioned) who is already pursue her study in EGYPT. hehehe. Though at the moment, I can be with her. But actually not. At the same time, Ijan also love her. One of the stupid thing I have ever done in MY LIFE, I said I LOVE YOU very loud. What an idiot. My friendship with Ijan almost destroyed because of her. But luckily we be friends again. Also, I've got the great result in PMR (same as in my class) and our school was on No.3 in SABAH. Keh keh keh. Golden year for me. Oh yeah, Ijan had a girlfriend during this time. But I'm not get along with his GF. I don't know why. Also, I have bravery to face girls (especially when I asked someone phone number) hahaha.

In 2008, well...I do have memories. I got to know a cute girl (form 3) from SEMEKEN, and we become friends. She is cute, her 2nd elder sister is cool and the elder sister is beautiful. I didn't know that SHE has a boyfriend and I tried to..well you know what... but yeah, rejected. But, that didn't ruin our friendship (as happened in my previous relationship with other girls). Why? SHE IS MY NEIGHBOUR. This year was the craziest (I think) cause I brought along my phone to school and TEXTING her during class, when the teacher was teaching. Hahaha. But eventually, we just become friends and now, I become friend with her sisters too. In fact, we're 'crazy head'. And this time, her sister whose I always called 'mumy' in relationship with my best friend. Believe me, they were perfect couple. The guy is handsome, the girl is beautiful. They are also neighbours and their house is only 3 meters away from each other. hahaha.

In 2009 was my SPM year. I can claimed that this year was my silver year. Hahaa. I was the HEAD PREFECT. Well, what next. ermm. err..I had a crush on...my junior. Hehehe. She was in form 3 that time. She is pretty and I love to watch her wearing tudung. :) But I just kept inside my heart. During 2009, I had a little argue (this is the correct one to describe?) with one of my classmates but really, I don't need to mention here. During in 2009 too, I have one more best friend and it's my teacher. :) Ohya, I sign up FACEBOOK during this year too. haha.

In 2010, I guess I have a lot of them. I have my driving license, have a good SPM result. Our batch was the great and once again, we made to top 10 in Sabah. :) I was in a relationship with a girl, but then broke up. I have a crush on a girl - my best friend - and fall in love with a girl in IPG. But then, yeah, I mentioned this before, rejected. But what the hell. I found out that Ijan already have a girlfriend in UMS, beautiful you know. Hehehe. I'm envy of him a little. But from him I learned about this LOVE thingy deeply. But I just want to wait my wife actually. (future wife) I HAVE A CRUSH ON A GIRL NOW but it's a secret. I just don't want to admit it.

Why I'm sharing these memories with you?Well maybe some of you just like me. Nah. This is just a little reflection I think. Anything can happen in 5 years and yeah, from 2005 to 2010, everything has changed a lot. When I keep thinking about it, I realized I have changed a lot. I don't know what but I'm sure it's good thing. I just need to forget the past (the one which was bad) and look forward. Try to recall the memories and ask yourself a question that you're the only one who can answer it. The question? Think it yourself. :P

New Chapter, New Ideas, New Life.

I kept thinking on these past few days about myself. I really need to start a very new chapter in my life. This year, 2010 didn't bring me any changes. I think the only change is I'm in HOSTEL LIFE. :)

I broke up with someone before entering IPG. I rejected by a girl during in IPG. Maybe Allah will give me the second best woman in my life eventually. (The first one will always be my mother)

My body GAINED WEIGHT until my mom said my body is in critical condition. Really?hehehe.

I met new friends and I'm so happy with them. I love all of them. I met new teachers in IPG.

I get to know MANY GIRLS. He he he. But none of them attract my attention (maybe because I ignore them.)

But there's one thing really change inside me. I don't know why. I think I lost my strength which I always have. I became so weak.

2010, many people said and claimed that 2010 is a best year. Soon, I found out that I haven't change a bit! However, MY HAIR is getting...WHITER.

Let's see. I learned to do assignment. He he he. But mostly mine was POOR QUALITY. But, what the heck, FIRST TIME ISN'T IT? :)

I gained more knowledge but I didn't practiced it. Sad.

I've fell many times this year and I'm too late to stand up again.

I need a strength to overcome my problems. I used to be cool in any situation but now..I'm not.

Maybe I really need to change myself. In order to be a good person. I'm bad you know.

You know, I'm not writing here to tell about my problems. I just want to share. Maybe some of you feel the same. :)

This is some kind of reflection but a simple one.

And yeah, I wrote this because IT IS NEARLY NEW YEAR (Hijriah year). I need to have desires for myself and others. I just hope I can be stronger than the past.

And I hope, I'll find a woman a.k.a WIFE that I can share love with her. ^_^

Nobody's perfect. I'm not perfect either. There's someone said, practice makes perfect but no one's perfect. So why do we need to practice?

Let me answer this.

There's no perfection except for ALLAH. :)

However, if you practice everyday, you will master it. This is what we call PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT.

Anyone can mistake. From the mistake we learned to not to do it again. So that our jobs, whatever we do will always advance to the next level. Human never satisfy for everything that they've done or gained. Only an HONEST and GRATEFUL PERSON will be more HAPPY than anyone. Why?Because they do not for them..FOR ALLAH. :)

If some of you make mistake, they will say NOBODY'S PERFECT. ANYONE CAN MAKE MISTAKES. So do I. But if we do honestly, believe me, Allah will always help you. That's make you perfect. Because of the ALLAH THE ALMIGHTY. :)

Don't twist the word of perfection. You have your own skill, strength. :)

What the heck with those people claiming their life are full of trials and they SIGHED? It's not good you know. People will always have trials and happiness in their life. These what make you ALLAH'S creation. Don't be so sad. Life WILL NEVER HURT. ONLY IF YOU THINK OF ALLAH. :) Believe me. I felt this before. But yeah, I've fell. I will stand up back to fight. :)

I just want to share. Maybe all of you will get something from this statement. Whatever we do, DO IT HONESTLY AND WHOLEHEARTEDLY. InsyaAllah our life will be wonderful. :)

Faiz