SBE - Last Day.

Wanna know a very touching story?
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Reflect yourself. Reflect what have you done during SBE, especially your final day.

Thanks for helping me GB, PK 1, PK HEM, PK Kokum and all teachers. Kids, you're cute, I hope we meet again. :)

Enjoy. :)

Pae - Next PBS, kampung-kampung juga. ^_^

SBE III part 2 & SBE IV

The fourth day.

SBE III part 2? Nothing much to state here. Well let's continue to part IV.

My fourth day, I had a class at 8 am. They were having test so I was the one who in charged in the test.

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Pae - Kamu ready suda ka mau jawab ni?
Murid (low) - Sudah~~~
Pae - Cikgu bagilah aa ni kertas soalan. Buat betul-betul. Jangan meniru ya. Cikgu tak nampak, tapi Tuhan nampak. Takutlah kamu pada Tuhan.

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We must remind them to not to cheat. So that in real examination, they will always know that Allah is watching all of us.

Still, they were attempting to cheat.  Hehe. It was funny to look at them. I just stared at them until they realised that I was watching. Then they were pretending to do their work.

Apa kes cikgu ni gambar-gambar. Malulah i. Kikiki.

I collected the papers back when time's up. But there was one student who still not finish yet. I waited patiently, I wanted to help but what could I do. Hehe.

I spent my time more on teacher's lounge hanging out with other teachers. Hehe. Macam geng karas suda ni kunun.

After that, I went to interview GB. Alhamdulillah, he gave me a lot of information about his tasks and school.

I went to special education class. Hee. This was one of the best moment I have ever had during SBE.

I talked to the assistant of S.E class. She said that these kids require us to be patient to handle them.

They are special. :)

Seriously, I am grateful to Allah because I'm not like them. However, to teach them, you need to be patient and wholehearted so that they'll be good people in the future. They are fun and good actually. Ups, a girl back there was shy because they are not used to be in front of camera. Or she was shy because of me? Hah!

I entered their class and it was interesting to see. Most of them suffer from autism and slow learner. Slow learner maybe better that others but, they are special. Need a lot of attention.

Mr. Pae, you're the best!

 Cute, isn't he? He suffered from mental retard. Okeh la. Terencat akal in BM. (I can't translate it)

It's tough to be in this class, especially teaching them. However, they are also normal like us. Never isolate them in society.

That's my SBE IV. Last day will be friday. Huu. I will miss them a lot. Hehe. Although I want holidays right now. Ahah.

Well, my last day of SBE, will be updated A.S.A.P.

Pae - Dear 'anda', how's your SBE? ^_^

SBE II & SBE III part 1

Heh. Third day of SBE. Sorry folks. I didn't update my second day of SBE.

Second day of SBE, mostly I went to interview important people that I need, PK 1 and PK Kokum as well as collecting information required - Maklumat Umum Sekolah.

Well, thanks to Allah, I finally managed to get info from them. Heh. Still, when I went into a class to take pictures - allowed by the teacher there - the pupils were smiling and kept looking at me. Hehe.

Not much to say actually, I was hungry yesterday. Hahaha.

SBE III Part 1. Why?

It's because I went to substitute a teacher today. I went to a class, 4 Gemilang.

All pupils there are cute and innocent. Well, kids are innocent after all.

So what did I do?

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Murid - Selamat pagi dan Assalamualaikum cikgu!

Pae - Waalaikumsalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. Duduk semua, duduk.

Pae- Sihat hari ni?

Murid - Sihat~~~

Pae - Dah makan?

Murid - Sudah~~~

Pae - Kenapa macam tidak bersemangat ni? Dah makan?

Murid - DAAHHHHH. (padan muka aku)

Pae - Kamu kenal cikgu?

Murid - Kenal.

Pae - Siapa nama cikgu?

Murid - Mohd Faiz.

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That surprised me. Seriously. Why?

I never expected them to know my name. It's only because I wear a nametag and GB introduced me during assembly, I was expected a little from them.

It means that, I am known-able. Hahaha.

Although I was just making simple activity - ta'aruf, but they seemed to give positive reactions, though there were some who didn't care - kids, what can you expect. I'm cool.

Err.. Nama saya Along.

I was asking them, this, that, those, these. Then they asked me.

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Murid - Berapa umur cikgu?

Pae - Kamu rasa berapa umur cikgu?

Murid 1 - 19!

Murid 2 - 22!

Murid 3 - 24!

Murid 4 - 21!

 Pae - Umur cikgu 20 sebenarnya.

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Well? I'm not too old. Hehe. They know how to identify. But there's someone asked this.

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Murid (whispering) - Cikgu sudah kahwin ka?

I heard this then asked them.

Pae - Kamu rasa cikgu sudah kahwin?

Murid - Belumm!!!!!!

Pae - Kenapa?

Murid 1 - Cikgu baru umur 20 tahun. Lagipun, cikgu tak pakai cincin.

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Kids, they know us better than adults. They are innocent and cute. I was startled when they asked me a straightforward question.

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Sara - Cikgu. Kenapa cikgu ada uban padahal baru 20 tahun?

Murid lain - Ya cikgu. Kenapa?

Pae - . . . . . . . . . .

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Of course I told them the truth. You're expecting me to lies? No. Never lie to children. If you did that, they will become a liar in the future.

Yeah!

Kids, although we only met for half an hour, but I feel like a teacher now. I'm surely can't wait for next PBS and practicum. Although that, I want to go home early! - alone. alone. alone.

I'll be patient. Tomorrow I'll in charge in examination - penjaga saja ba (don't know how to write in English). The same class. Hehe. Alhamdulillah.

Okay, I want to continue to my work. If I spend too much time on FB and blog, my works surely delay.

Pae - Jubah oo jubah.

Islam ajar kita sabar. Rasulullah ajar kita sabar. Allah suruh kita sabar.

Assalamualaikum,

Adeh. SBE II tak terupdate pula. Sorry yer. SBE hari ini insya Allah aku update.

Sempat lagi aku berblog ni. Haha. Jam 9.40 aku masuk kelas. Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan ku. Jangan biarkan diriku terkontang-kanting tanpaMu.

Semalam lewat balik, 6 petang baru sampai di rumah. Why? Besalah kalau mendrive melencong ke Beaufort. Nasib bukan melencong terus ke Keningau. Haha.

Seriously, aku semalam tak ada mood langsung mahu buat kerja. Penat sangat. Tapi paksa diri sebab refleksi mesti ada. Walaupun aku jenis kuat ingat, tapi senang lupa. Apakah!

Cerita sabar lagi.

Tak apa, inilah elemen penting dalam manusia. Kalau tak sabar, sudah tentu syaitan yang kuasai diri kita.

Dalam banyak perkara, memang ada saja dugaan. Malahan kalau berjalan pergi masjid pun pasti ada dugaan.

Kisah sahabat, yang mana beliau on the way ke masjid, tapi jatuh dan kotor pakaian. Balik rumah, pergi lagi. Berlaku lagi perkara tadi, balik rumah pergi lagi. Last-last kali ketiga baru dapat. Tengok, sabar sungguh dia. Dan yang sabotaj dia tu syaitan sebenarnya.

Kisah lain? Rasulullah. Baginda diejek, cerca, maki, hamun, disakiti dan macam-macam lagi. Baginda tetap sabar. Malaikat Jibril offer untuk 'belasah' mereka dengan menghempap mereka, baginda tidak bersetuju malah mendoakan kebaikan untuk mereka.

Imam Nukman, kena penjara kena hukum. Sampai mati pun beliau tidak ikut arahan sultan kerana takutkan Allah. Mati syahid, Allahuakbar.

Imam Syafie pun kena penjara, tapi tetap bersabar. Tinggi kan kesabaran mereka?

Tapi ada cerita yang menyentuh hatiku. Cerita Nabi Ayyub. Allah menguji dia dengan kesenangan 70 tahun, dan menguji dia dengan kesusahan 7 tahun.

Apakah ujian tersebut?

Penyakit kulit, hilang harta, hilang nyawa dan macam-macam lagi ujian sehinggalah dia hanya berdoa biarlah tubuh badan lain jadi lumpuh kecuali lidahnya. Untuk apa? Supaya dia dapat berzikir kepada Allah.

Isterinya? Merungut sebab ujian yang menimpa mereka. Nabi Ayyub kata apa? Dia halau isterinya sebab merungut dan bernazar untuk menyebatnya kalau dia sembuh nanti.

Syaitan, first time dia putus asa untuk membuatkan Nabi Ayyub merungut. Power oo Nabi Ayyub, berkat kesabaran baginda yang Allah bagi. Allahuakbar.

Kita? Jangankan mahu hadapi ujian berat, ujian assignmem pun belum tentu kita dapat bersabar. Hmm.....

Bersabarlah rakan-rakanku. Bukan anda saja yang ditimpa ujian. Bayangkan mereka yang kehilangan ibu bapa sejak kecil, memang menyedihkan bukan.

Insya Allah dengan kesabaran, darjat kita naik. Sebab itu tandanya Allah sayang kita. Dia mahu kita sentiasa berdoa kepadaNya.

Aku akui, aku pun kadang-kadang tak sabar. Yalah, buat kerja tak sabar, malahan sekarang ni, tak sabar mahu balik Keningau!

Tapi aku rileks sebab kalau terburu-buru nanti, sandih hasilnya.

Jadi, jangan risau. Sekiranya jalan yang kita lalui tu membuat kita sakit, menangis dan terluka, itulah jalan yang benar kita lalui. Tiada manusia dalam dunia ini tidak ditimpa ujian.

Ujian bakal datang ni, masuk kelas tahun 4. Heh. Mudah-mudahan dipermudahkan.

Kesabaran itu, menjadikan kita matang. Aku teruk time zaman muda-mudi dulu, memang banyak dugaan. Alhamdulillah, kini insya Allah sampai bila-bila bersabar.

Dah cukup. Malar berblog. Nasib PBS, kalau praktikum aku buat begini. Konfom kena report ke IPG. Haha.

Pae - Sabar itu separuh daripada iman. ^_^

SBE I

Assalamualaikum!

Well, my first day of SBE, what could I say?

I faced it very well, extremely well. O Allah. Thank You for eased me today, as well as my friends.

In the morning, I woke up early, perform solah. Then, like IPG's life but this is different.

Why? I feel like a school student who wants to go to school. Nevermind.

My aunt drove me, fetch two kids who went to the same school.

When I was about to report myself to principal, PK 1 brought me to see him.

When I saw his face, it's reminded me of my lecturer. Hehe.

He is very nice (usage of 'is' because I will still face him until friday). Seriously.

You know that BIG PEOPLE, most of them don't talk or socialize - what word did I use - with their employees.

This? Not only employees, though I'm not one of the official teachers there, I was treated like an adult.

I feel extremely happy.

Not only that, I suppose to seek for help, but they're the one who offer me helps.

I joined their assembly. I suppose, I haven't attend any school students assembly since 2009. Haha.

The students are not too much, 207 if I'm not mistaken. Surprise? You don't see the school, it was big. Way  too big than my high school. The class is one for each standard. It means, there are 6 class for 6 standards, excluding special class and preschool class.

Teachers only 34. The most interesting part, students suppose to stand up, but this, they are sitting down on the floor.

Hehe. I can't keep myself from smiling looking at them. I remembered most of my memories in schools.

Ahh, I'm getting old. Hahaha.

Still, I was shocked of a student. Why? She was able to react like an adult.

Guess what, she will be 13 next year. That's why.

After assembly, I reported myself to principal. He showed me where my place is. Heh. I never asked, but alhamdulillah.

I also met my junior's mother. Wow, it was nice to meet her. Hehe.

I began my work, looking materials, taking pictures. I remembered Fattabouni's tazkirah last night, always smile. Whenever I see people, I'll smile, even if it's only a student.

Maybe it's my charm? Who knows. Kekekeke.

I interview PK HEM - junior's mother - asked her what PK HEM does. She told me this, that, gave me list of tasks. I guess, PK HEM role is not only on discipline, but in every aspect.

I went again and again and look for materials. I remembered a friend message, "Jangan buat pelajar jatuh cinta!" Crazy, Chee Sin. I'm an old person. White hair, little chubby - okay FAT! - and not handsome. In fact, they are all still setahun jagung. Haha.

I then found 'Bilik Rawatan'. Maybe I can include this in my report. So I interviewed teacher's there. It is my first time to speak bravely, to ask bravely, to inquire bravely. I have changed, a lot.

Then, I stranded alone in teacher's lounge - they don't call it room. On my temporary table. I faced laptop, and started to type about HEM's tasks.

I wrote action plan for tomorrow. Hehe. Action plan. Then did my own work. What did I do?

Facebook and blog. Read my last entry on today in BM.

However, I was informed that they were having meeting at one. I guess I could wait but....oh! They finished 2.30 pm. I was....hungry. Never mind. They offered me lunch. I ate. Haha.

That was my first day of SBE. Still, I wanted to finish it early. Next SBE, I will choose Beluran, or become crazy by going to Ranau. If I could. Hehe. Beluran? My brother is there. Ranau? Mount Kinabalu and Kundasang. Coolness is what we are!

Stop here. This is only first day. Next day, I will meet - insya Allah - PK 1, PK Kokum, ask for entering class. Hehe.

Well, have a nice day people!

This is it.

Pae - Nervousness is just an illusion. Alhamdulillah, thanks for ease our progression today O Allah!

Pre-SBE II

What I feel right now?

I AM TOTALLY 1000% NERVOUS.

Heh. Seriously I am.

However, when I think of it, this is 'dunia'. Only face a small situation. That's all.

We don't know situation at 'akhirat'. Not only that, we don't even know what kind of situation we'll face in our own grave!

I think deeply, yes. The only one we should fear is ALLAH S.W.T. We can only rely on Allah. Insya Allah, we will be helped by Him.

When I think about this, I shouldn't feel nervous. It's okay to feel a little but believe that Allah will always there for us. Pray to Him. That, will relieve all the nervousness that we have inside us.

I've read a friend of mine blog. She also feel nervous. Still, she's lucky because she has friends - same campus - at there. Me? Heh. I don't know if I have friends there - from other campus - but AFAIK, I am the only one - from my campus - who do SBE there. Heh. Well, I'm not alone. Allah always beside me and all of us. Hehe.

I believe that everyone - PISMP 2012 - feel nervous to face our first SBE. Another reason to not to feel nervous, THIS ISN'T OUR PRACTICUM! Haha.

Well, this is my pre-sbe II. Just want you guys to know situation. Heh. Insya Allah, I'll update my blog about SBE for this week and be prepared. It will be in English!

Problem I face, I don't have digital cameras for photoshoot. Ces, sorry. For taking pictures. Another? I will have to photocopy all types of important documents that needed for SBE - reflections, collaborations.

Pray for us dear readers so that we will be okay. Insya Allah.

Pae - Allah is the only one and only place for us to seek for help. Let us pray to Him.

Pre-SBE

Assalamualaikum,

Well. March 4. Heh. It's been a while, since I wrote in English.

Current location, I'm at Kuala Penyu. Why? I will go for SBE for a week.

I can't keep myself from thinking about SBE. Well, of course this is my first time, I am nervous, seriously.

If I do my SBE in Keningau, it will be advantage for me because it is my hometown so I don't have any problems for transport. However, here, my aunt will be the one who drive as she is teaching at my SBE school. Alhamdulillah.

I imagine myself meet the principal, talk and talk and talk. Collaborate with other teachers, watching them, FPK, argh! I don't know if I can make through this.

However, when I looked on senior SBE portfolio - guess who - I speak to myself, "Allah will always beside me. Allah will help. Progression will be eased."

I already have the overview on what will I do during SBE. I'll refer to the portfolio. Hehe. Nice work there seniorita - girl's portfolio.

However, I'm still nervous because we don't know what might happen during SBE but insya Allah, I will overcome this.

I will prepare as much as I can so that I don't have to rush in a very last minute. Questions, collaboration form, anything related so that I will be able to finish this task.

I once regretted on the place I have chosen but I denied it. It's my choice and I know, Allah will ease this. Insya Allah.

Mostly, if we feel nervous when facing something, in the end we will be alright and happy. However, if we feel okay and cool, in the end we will be panic. Well, I don't know, Allah knows.

Okay! That's related to SBE. I don't know what to type anymore, so let me conclude this. I am sleepy and want to sleep. Night-night everyone. Haha.

Pae - SBE oh SBE! After this, holiday!