21 = 21

When I was young?

21st July 2013. It's almost eight months since my first day in 2013.

Well, it's just a day, but special.

Just enjoy it.

When I Was Young

All the baby faces

Relevance? My veins didn't appear.

Big me.

The moment I was the killer.

When I was the facilitator.

The moment when I became overweight - nearly obese

Another one

The moment when I still big

The moment when I still in progress

The moment when I won the second place with teammates during this carnival

The moment when I already fit

The moment where I still maintain until today.

Okay, another moment. Please notice the difference between the pictures.

Oh double chin!

I felt like wrapping in a blanket.

Err.....

When I was really young

You have seen this.

And this.

I'm still alive, I'm still young, though the age has increased. Thanks to Allah.

The increase of the ages, means we are getting closer to death, however, don't let your life dull, dark without light from Allah.

The reason why I put the pictures for you to differentiate each of it  because my efforts on weight loss. I used to be a guy who dislike to workout although has interest on it, a guy who knows a little about anatomy (when I was at Form 1). I used to be a guy who was very lazy even to take a remote TV just to change the channel.

As the time has passing by, my wake up call started at the end of December 2012. I assumed you have read the entry that I wrote before.

I hardly can breathe, always exhausted though doing a little job, pain, aches every where. I still remember in 2012, my legs were injured yet I still forced myself to play volleyball at the evening, to which in the morning, I couldn't pray Subuh very properly ( I had to sit in order to reduce the killing pain).

Then my friends said I lost weight (in 2012), yet I gained too much due to overeat and I gained 100 and more in December.

The main point here is losing weight, but I just want to share with you something, something that I have never felt for my entire life.

CONFIDENCE.

Before this, I used to be a shy person, hate camera, because I knew I was ugly or not good looking. I hate to wear nice clothes and just being simple. I was shy to go out to do some exercises, except with friends.

I did try to lose weight, but little knowledge of healthy lifestyle, the efforts were useless. So I stopped, and let myself to grow bigger.

I know overweight/obese is bad for health yet I still continued my lifestyle, overeat, lack of sleep, didn't care much about my body.

The hardest part, of course looking for clothes for Hari Raya, new semester. My clothes became bigger, from L to XL, to XXL.

I was easily stress, angry and many more. I was a hot-tempered before this, couldn't accept other's opinion, too much to say.

However, after wake up call, everything has changed, while some people asked why did I want to lose weight? Simple answer, to have a better health.

Clothes size reduced to L (even M!), I like to do workout until now (except that I don't do weight lifting because fasting), I like to take pictures (if you see my pictures), I like to hang out with friends, making new friends.

I have a better health, but the most important thing is I gain confidence in doing something. I have changed a lot since early 2013.

I am still hot-tempered, but I try and will always keep trying to be cool as a cucumber, no matter how difficult the situation is. I'm not easily stress anymore, the most important thing that I like.

I rarely suffer from migraine, I rarely suffer from pains, except for after workout but those are just aches.

Thanks to Allah for all of these, now I'm 21, my favourite number after 7.

Well, too much detail for me to write here, but I just want to share that the moment you have changed, you will notice the difference. Now I'm emphasizing on better health, I try to bring more people to have better health because I used to be a person who didn't care much about myself.

There's a quote from a blog..

"Badan kita milik Allah, Dia kasi pinjam, jagalah baik-baik. Takkanlah kita nak kembalikan kepadaNya dalam keadaan buruk?"

If you still do not care about your health, it's your choice. Nobody forces you to so, but Allah gives you brain to think.

It's your choice to be good, have a good life. Don't blame others, but you.

Thank you for the wishes people.

#When I was young, I looked like a Chinese kid. Miahahah!!

March, farewell.

Assalamualaikum,

It's been a while, since my last English entry. Hehehe.

Well, it's not that I am super-duper busy, actually I become busy because of BIG F1. Ohoo. Our first BIG, 30th March to 2nd April. Where? Borneo Paradise. What I love about it, SEA!!!!!!!!

I'm in the group with my classmates and coursemate - Resalonica, Hasliana, Halberth, Chung, former classmates - Farid, Nerry, Patima and PSV - Joel, Valerie, Heidi. Our group name is starfish. I don't know why did they choose the name but I like it. Reminds me of Patrick in Spongebob.

Angry PatrickBob?

Seriously, the only members that has been in the same group with me since I came here are si bikin panas yang tidak pandai sebut PaE - Nerry and Valerie. Initially, I thought that I would not get along easy with them - other members. Well, I'm a shy person anyway. I admit I'm wrong. <-- These sentences could be in reflection. Kehkeh.

Flag is done, vision is done, mission is done, our 'yell' is done, performance is....ups? Hehe. Let it be a secret regarding this performance.

All left to do is, put our belongings into the bus. Seriously, I have to wait about half an hour to get my clothes wash, or else I don't have shirt for BIG. Lalalala.

Move on, about today. Seriously I love today and yesterday. For some reasons, I feel relieve that no more assignments except for PBS and BIG. Oh, and Pengurusan Kokum.

Still, yesterday, was my classmate, my friend birthday. Yup, he is like a brother to me, sometimes tembirang ni. Kehkehkeh. And also, at class, I played DotA and managed to get two win!! Kehkeh. Oh yeah.

Today, 30th March, Friday. I love Friday, because prayer and Friday is the best day among the seven days. Also, class end early. Kehkeh.

Still, 30th of March is special for another friend. I don't think she'll read this but, Sanah Helwah teacher. Hehe. Insya Allah, we'll meet next time on holidays....or maybe next week? Kehkehkeh.

Well, I think that's all about now, until we see the first entry of April. I won't talk about 1st of April, but I'll repost my entry regarding the first of April. People, please read that.

When people around me happy, I'm happy. Starfish members, this is I made for you.

Strong to face challenges

Teamwork is vital

Anything is possible

Reach our goals together

Failure won't stop us

Impossible is nothing

Stay strong and firm

Hardworking is what we need

Good night, let us rock the world at Borneo Paradise!!!

Pae - Cuci kain dulu~~~~

Pae- Tak salah kan mencintai seseorang yang lebih tua dari kita?

AvA - Apa hal ko ni? Taste tak kena. Carilah yang muda-muda, baru mantap.

Pae - Weih, aku cakap pasal mak, kakak aku la!

Miahaha. Assalamualaikum semua.

Alhamdulillah, sampai juga aku di rumah tercinta ini. Tidur sorang-sorang semalam, dengan keadaan sangat gelap dan sunyi, punyalah bikin lena, kononlah. Pergh, bosan juga turut melanda diriku.

Nampak dialog atas? Kehkehkeh. Itu sebagai kata-kata kiasan saja.

Tak salah meminati seseorang yang lebih tua dari kita, sebab Nabi S.A.W juga berkahwin dengan Khadijah yang jauh lebih tua dari baginda.

Jadi tak salah juga bagi seseorang, terutamanya lelaki meminati seseorang wanita yang tua beberapa tahun dari dirinya.

Walaupun tiada dalam nas, tapi nabi S.A.W suruh supaya kahwin dengan anak dara, gadis sebab memang ada hikmahnya.

Gadis-gadis kan comel-comel, kebudak-budakan, manja, kehkehkeh. Macam tau saja aku ini, takkanlah?

Seperti Aisyah dengan Nabi sendiri, kan comel tu. Hehehe.

Tapi apapun, minat boleh dibentuk, dihalang. Fitrah itu tak boleh dinafikan, cuma ingin ku katakan, jangan membawa cinta fitnah.

Tak salah minat, yang penting jaga diri mereka, sebaik mungkin. Orang kita sekarang, kuat cakap-cakap. Contoh?

Orang kahwin awal dikata terlanjur, orang kahwin lewat dikata tak laku, orang kahwin hantaran mahal dikata temberang, orang kahwin hantaran murah dikata sengkek pula, orang kahwin pasangan yang beberapa tahun tua dikata bodoh, orang kahwin pasangan muda dikata gatal. Bodoh juga orang-orang yang cakap begini.

Orang kahwin tak ingin bersanding dikata kedekut, orang kahwin tak ingin berkaraoke dikata ketinggalan zaman, orang kahwin bernikah di masjid macam-macam dia kata. Heh, aku cili mulut tu padan muka.

Pedulikan apa orang kata, kalau mau kahwin, ikut sunnah, kahwin saja.

Kalau minat seseorang, bagitau walinya okay. Hehe.

Memang tak salahlah, untuk meminati seseorang yang tua 3-4 tahun, jangan saja yang dah uzur diminati, adakah patut.

Urus cinta baik-baik, mudah-mudahan jumpa jodoh terbaik. Insya Allah, aku pun nak juga jodoh baik-baik. Ironinya, kehkehkeh.

Kesimpulannya, dengan ini aku mengumumkan

INDEFINITE HIATUS

Khas untuk awak.

"Assalamualaikum awak...

Alhamdulillah, kini dah cuti. Awak jaga diri baik-baik ya. Jangan jajal, jangan nakal, jangan buat hal.

Awak, apabila tau cuti dah tiba, saya rasa gembira berbaur sedih, sebabnya cuti, susah nak nampak awak, gembiranya, awak dah bergembira, disamping keluarga tercinta.

Pergh, awak tentu tak faham apa yang saya mengarut ini.

Awak, tahu tak, selama ini, saya dah mula minat terhadap awak, hanya, saya tak ingin menyentuh hati awak.

Saya tahu awak mungkin dah ada lelaki pilihan, mungkin dah minat seseorang, tapi seriously awak, saya memang ada simpan perasaan pada awak.

Saya hanya mampu berdoa, agar awak ditemukan dengan terbaik. Awak, saya juga nak minta maaf sebab jarang sangat nak menegur, sebabnya saya malu berdepan dengan perempuan terutamanya awak. Pergh, ayat saya ini tak kena langsung dengan personaliti. Hehehe.

Awak mesti hairan, kenapa saya minat awak. Well, firstly awak memang seorang muslimah, bukan seorang perempuan. Jangan salah faham, ada beza muslimah dengan perempuan, sepertimana mukminah dengan muslimah.

Awak jaga diri, jaga akhlak, jaga amal ibadah, terharu saya, dan saya rasa saya memang tak layak untuk awak. Sebabnya, awak jauh lebih baik dari saya. Macam mana nak bimbing awak nanti? Sudah tentu yang terbaik saja dapat bimbing awak.

Awak tahu, ironinya pasal kita dua, saya tak kenal awak, begitu juga sebaliknya. Tapi insya Allah jangan risau, sebab apabila saya meluahkan perasaan saya pada awak satu hari nanti, saya akan jumpa wali awak, bukan awak. Sebabnya, itulah cara yang paling afdhal.

Awak, time cuti ni jaga diri ya. Kalau diizinkanNya, bertemulah kita pada masa akan datang. Tahun depan, bulan depan, entah bila, entah iya, entah tidak.

Awak, sekiranya saya pergi dulu, saya nak awak janji kerana Allah, awak akan sentiasa jaga diri, akhlak, amalan dan agama. Awak, terima kasih sebab hadir memberi semangat, sekalipun, ironinya tetap ada.

Awak, simpan senyuman awak, khas untuk si dia yang terbaik ya. Sampaikan salam kepada ayah ibu awak, adik-beradik awak. Terima kasih awak."

P/S - Awak, entri ini memang khas untuk awak. :)